Living with Borderline Personality Disorder?

I recently went to the local crisis center after trying to commit suicide on a drinking binge which i recently got started on after having a very bad break up with my boyfriend which centered around infidelity on his part. Well, things had been getting really bad to the point I could not cope. Most people don't understand what it's like with the hell living with borderline personality disorder. I have been doing extensive therapy this week having to see someone everyday to make sure that I don't self harm and or try to commit suicide.


What I'm wondering is aside from seeking help which i did how does someone actually deal with the abandonment issues? I cut and its causing damage to my tendons now. I tried binge drinking and well that turned into trying to kill myself and now I just got to the point where I know if it does not change soon I wont be here alot longer. I'm not saying this for sympathy I know 10% of people with BPD do commit suicide and I really do not want it to go to that extreme how do others living with this manage to cope are there some kind of forums or something to talk to others with this issues or other people who have found ways to cope with them other than cutting, random sex partners, drinking and drugs? None of this helps it just really makes it alot worse :(





help...Living with Borderline Personality Disorder?
Hi, well as said in my last answer you really need to have your medication reviewed and i believe you should try the antdepressant cymbalta as it is very good - i was hospitalised for depression and they put almost everyone on this and its the only one that helped me - but regardless even if cymbalta does not work you need to fnd one that does.





It sounds like you may need to go and stay in hospital (psych ward) for a few weeks to really get some intensive help. I had to do it and dont regret it. There were a lot of 'respectable' people in there with good jobs who were pretty or whatever so dont feel ashamed.





My mum was sexually abused and had bpd plus 3 kids and no help from my dad. She managed to stop drinking and to be honest my mum is not all there so if she can do it you can too She had to go to hospital to stop too. I think you should admit yourself to a psych ward as soon as you can and just focus on getting better.





Btw alot of doctors do not like to diagnose people wth having bpd as they are often wrong and it crosses over with other disorders. I have been told i 'might have it' which was no help to me because they couldnt even confirm it. I would be careful of labellng yourself BDD because you may have a mix of other disorders its really hard to say. I think it also makes people feel helpless about stuff being labelled as that - sexual abuse survivers can go on to have healthy relationships and i think these labels make them think they cant. Btw my mum has been wth a new guy 3 years and he is not at all abusve and treats her really well - goes to show you wll not be in destructive relationships necessarily.Living with Borderline Personality Disorder?
you need professional help to learn coping skills and well as having a medication review.
my heart really goes out to you because i experienced a mental disorder during my pregnancy and it's so hard to see the light when you're there.





i wish I could cuddle you and light that torch for you. You need a mum, a dad, a sister or brother. You need someone to help you till you find your way.





Your mind is so powerful it has created this. Just imagine if you found a place where you could teach your mind to create something amazing. May I suggest you tell everyone you need help. If no one listens, go to a church, a synagogue, a buddhist temple *my preference';, a mosque and ask for help. Stay clear of unknown religions because you're really vulnerable now.





You can learn to tell this mind of yours how you want to live. In the meantime, it's OK to use meds. Dont fight them. At least try something like St Johns Wort.





This earth is holding you up my friend. You are not alone. You are obviously smart but are just making bad choices. Follow the norm...society. Pretend for 24 hours that you are a princess and part of the norm society and then if that works, do it for 48 hours.





You need to have some fun and relaxation too.
Firstly i think getting out of that last relationship was the best thing you could have done ---- although you feel betrayed i think deep down you know you deserve better. I have never had BPD but have been depression free for about 3 yrs now but before that was living a pure nightmare. I was in an abusive relationship with my highschool sweetheart soulmate (that virgo guy) and he ended up being really abusive for the last 2 yrs of the relationship... I had sever depression and anxiety that was CHRONIC all day everyday... tried 6 diff meds finally found one that did not cause brain zaps only to discover that i had toxic reaction to it.... i got off -- had withdrawal and all this terrible bas SH** happened... I had to go to 4 months of intense therapy and my health had to hit rock bottom -- develped chronic fatugue and fibromyalgia for 5 yrs from the trauma that it caused me... was unemployed for 2 yrs. ... anyway to cut the long depressing story short .... just want to say your not alone.... i guess my point is in my situation i had to hit rock bottom before i started making my come back 5 yrs in the making.... Im not sure if your religious or not .. but i used to pray hard but my first bible in the midst of all that and felt my angels always guiding me and taking care of me... I am soo strong now because of what i went through... what doesn't kill you makes you stronger... Also have you ever thought maybe your going through this for a reason and that maybe your supposed to go through this crap to come out the other end. Definately seek help, people are out there just like you and you are not alone.....